Stream of consciousness

I talk to myself a lot. Quite frequently out loud, though I try to avoid that if there are other people about, it can lead to misunderstandings…

Even when I’m not talking out loud, I tend to keep up a sort of conversation with myself – sometimes it’s more of a monologue, but quite often it’s a definite conversation – and it’s pretty much always complete sentences. You could record my thoughts and play them back and they’d be as understandable as most of my conversations (which might not be saying much, come to think of it). However, as with thoughts said out loud – to an audience or to the thin air – there is always an undercurrent of half-thoughts and such. Although my “conscious” thought is a flow of reasonably well formulated sentences, I rarely, if ever, think of only one thing at a time. This leads to funny moments (well, funny to me, no one else is aware of what’s going on in my head, after all – at least I hope not) – as I get exactly the same sort of effects in my “stream of consciousness” as I do in sentences said out loud whenever other – half-conscious – thoughts distract me from the topic at hand. In other words, I get half finished sentences and “slips of the tounge” in my thoughts. I find myself “saying” to myself “That’s not what I meant to think” quite as frequently as I have to tell people “That’s not what I meant to say”.

This sort of thing amuses me. No, I’m probably not quite sane.

Voice in my head (apart from my own, as outlined above): Michael Wiehe – Hemmet